Dad

The only time you were my father

Was in my imagination

The only time you gave me food

Was when I earned it

The only time you held my hand

Was to hold me down

The only time you touched my face

Was to beat me

The only time you bathed my skin

Was to wash away your sins

The only time you wrapped your arms around me

Was to hurt me

The only time you ever loved me

Was not a time I recall at all

Entry in A Boy’s Journal – date: unknown.