Today is self-injury awareness day. It’s one of those things that has many sides. Many people do not understand it, it can be brushed off as an attention thing, yet in truth those that do it, do it alone, they hide it and they are ashamed, there is no attention in that. Most self harmers go to great lengths to hide what they have done.
Last year I, self harmed to the point of needing it to be stitched, I had to go to the walk in centre for this, and it was probably one of the most shameful things I had to do last year. The staff knew what I had done, I didn’t tell them, but there’s nothing like them making you wait to see the on call psychiatrist to be assessed and the fear of being admitted to hospital. In a world that’s so silent in my head, how could I let my family know what I had done to myself? I would never be able to tell them why.
It’s been two hours since my last self harm. It is something I hide and were it not for the day today, something I wouldn’t say.
I’m sorry you go through this and really wish I could help 😦
Although you are in pain, and I wish I could do something more to help; I am glad you said it. It’s something that needs to be said. And I hope you keep saying it until you have no reason you harm yourself anymore.
No matter how long it takes, I have faith in you, James, that someday you will stop.
And I will say it again ; my wish for you, is to find peace in your heart and in your life, once and for all.
~ Tight hugs
Reblogged this on survivorsjustice and commented:
Self Harm Awareness Day, thank you JD Stockholm – fabulous read!!! It is true most of those who harm themselves will indeed go to great lengths to hide their wounds. Many teen girls are cutters, but it takes months or longer before their parents ever become aware, mainly because we don’t look at the bodies of our daughters so we don’t see the marks they leave on themselves. Thank you for sharing your wonderfully talented writing in this message!!! trish
JD, is it possible to get you on our talk radio show? It would be an honor to have you share with us. A great share as always, thank you, ~~t
If I wasn’t so shy I would do, but saying the word abuse out loud is frightening.